Flashback Friday and Better Times

It was Trav's last day of chemo and radiation almost exactly a year ago. We didn't plan it this way, but it happened to be the same night as Matchbox Twenty in Salt Lake. We bought the tickets months before we knew Travis' treatment schedule. We all had a great time that night. I stood, danced, and sang for every song. Kari danced through most of the songs with me but she sat for a couple numbers as well. I stood alone for a bit and then Trav stood up with me. I'll never know if it was because he was embarrassed that I was dancing by myself or if it's because he was feeling the groove, but the point is simply that he was here. Trav was fun, he always said little funny things and spoke with a soft, comforting voice. I remember being worried about him in the middle of the concert, I turned and asked him on a scale of 1 to 10 how good he was feeling. I can still hear his voice say, "Oh about a seven," and he nodded with content. I'd hoped he wasn't lying just so I would have a good time and not stress about him. Trav was like that.

Now twelve months later I'm writing Trav was instead of is and I'm crying about it. On that particular night, I thought we had many more years of doing things with Kari & Trav. I really thought he was going to lick the stupid cancer. Up to that point, everything looked positive and seemed to be going his way. Travis was never to sold on cruising the ocean but he'd changed his mind and we even considered the four of us going on a cruise in the fall or sometime this year. I know we would've had a good time doing that too, but it was not to be. I am finding myself thinking alot about Trav again and remembering. Trav thought we might forget him, but he was wrong. The best are not forgotten.

I'm posting videos that Lyndee took the night of our concert in hopes that I won't be sad when I think about him. I'll try to think about the smiles and laughs we had and how Trav said those were the best seats he's ever had at a concert. We were right in front of the blocks that Rob Thomas is standing on, doing his melting heartpat. The second video shows one of the quicker times that Rob pointed at us. Trav later told Karianne that we were fooling ourselves because Rob was only pointing at him. We sure miss you Trav.